Countdown .. #100BlogDays #day2

It started around the time I started earning and hence could plan gifts for myself. I have always made a big deal of my birthday as in buying something special or expensive. I can actually list the things i bought in last 7 years for my birthday.  
I can not explain the feeling – its not expectation from friends or family even when I have never had a birthday that was not overwhelmingly love filled . It is neither an obsession for materialistic things. The closest I have come for an explaination is that I value the fact that I am responsible for creating my own happy moments before anyone else does it. No one owes me that. I earned that privilege as I gathered some amazingly kind people around me. But first , i should be willing to pamper myself with love.
I am far away from transitioning the same understanding to some of my flaws and relationships that I hammer due to my fears of losing peole. I still do not value and cherish myself the way I am , this version of me that is sum total of all my past decisions and dreams. And that I suppose is what I should and would be doing this year. This year for my birthday I will be writing , reading more , taking my health seriously and become a better person with a positive outlook. 

Hope you all have figured out about yourself and your goals too !  Let me kNow if I can lend a helping hand to those .. 
Oh , btw its 20 days to my birthday !! 💐 πŸ˜€ 

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0 thoughts on “Countdown .. #100BlogDays #day2”

  1. I like your idea of 100 days of blogging. Sometimes it is in the writing that we find the answers. I, too, have not had the confidence in myself that I need to believe what I do is important. The fear of losing others has been there and to let go is something I try to do every day. I do not love any of my family less but need to know they will be there for me. I enjoy your writing and look forward to seeing more of it in the days to come. πŸ™‚ The glass half full and not half empty is difficult to see for some. You are young and I know the answers will come for you.

  2. I better make a note of that now πŸ™‚ ..
    The best birthday I ever had was Nov. 2012.. for sure … hopefully one day i will have one like that some day toooo ..
    and yes one need to love themselves first … you got to be lovable to be loved and as I have said a million times lucky are the ones who get loved ….

  3. I’ve never bought myself anything on my birthday usually. πŸ™‚ Maybe once, a couple of years back, when I bought a Titan watch, but nothing else. This year, I bought books and a phone. I love that I’ve to create my happiness. But I don’t need a lot to make me happy. Thankfully.
    PS: I know when your birthday is πŸ˜› even if I forget, you usually remind me. Not that I forget, of course.

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