This change of country has not been easy for me but something that I had completely not prepared myself was having some challenging people around. Anyway, this post is about the little things I feel good about right now , coz I need that reminder –
1. This is my 21st post on the blog in the very first month. ( I have promised to write 300 posts in 2019 )
2. I will be finally moving out of the hotel this weekend and into a studio apartment so that means I will be eating hot self cooked meals again.
I finally get to fill a house the way I want and make it a home for me and my husband. This was sort of a subconscious dream of mine from years ago when we were dating. ( More of that conversation some other time )
3. This uncomfortable phase of worries and panic attacks and nights of tossing in the bed has been instrumental in finding my strength again . It taught me that if you keep sight of your long term goals, the daily issues can be handled one by one.
This was much needed lesson that had to be revised well in order to be implemented.
And work ? I know I am capable and I know to keep my head down and put in my 150 percent effort. I should be okay. Right ?
You made me talk when I was in distress
Maybe I looked as if I could need a word
In this new country, so tired of this cold;
Maybe we both needed to shed some light
On the reasons that brought us to that place,
Both with a mixed feelings about our names and place
He who was dropping his father’s name
Me who picked up my husband’s surname
Both unsure yet happy with the choice
Both strangers , yet bonded for a while.
Thank you for the smile.
Today was my first day in Canada and its freezing cold ( nothing new for this country ! ) But it’s every bit of my worst nightmare in terms of nature. And though I used uber for all my commute , I still felt my bones cold and aching by end of the day. But wherever I went , I met some really helpful folks and specially this teacher Alex who talked and talked and as much as I was amazed at his questions , I kind of liked it. I wish I had taken his email id for maybe more talks on history and his travels.
This is inspired by Weekly Smile post. Finally I got the motivation to share about mine this week ( mostly I feel like sharing my joys would catch a bad eye of fate too soon )
So , from last 4 years , I hosted Dec writing challenge where I asked people to sum up the year gone by. This year I had no intention of doing that ( no idea why ) but I sure wanted to revive my blog before the year ends.
A quick update on the last month is that I spent first half of it being sick and the last 10 days recovering from a minor surgery. I am lot better ( and a little lighter 😉 ) from the food my mom been feeding me. and if that is going to be the trend for next 45 days , I am sure I can finally lose some inches 😀
Another reason I wanted to revive the blog was to write – anything and almost everything that comes to my mind. hopefully , you will see some random yet sensible posts till I gain more confidence and readership 😛
Finally, I hope I will visit and read all you awesome people I follow.
More laters !
PS : I actually logged in to check out the WP snow balls 😀
PPS: I love them.
One thing leads to another , they say. And that’s how most tales begin or end in real life too.
I met Yogesh after I moved to Delhi and one of the major reason was that I had started to depend on him for any information or help I needed regarding places and transport in Delhi. But the reason and circumstances that led me to delhi were nothing I had imagined.
It was Dec 2010 , I was working in Bangalore when my parents had asked me to come home urgently. Little did I know I was supposed to meet a guy , the prospective groom that my dad’s best friend had suggested. I was recovering from a break up and was not really ready for such a step but I still went ahead with the plans. The guy was nice to talk to and within half hour we were chatting quite freely. This was good enough for both the sides and within an hour , I was formally engaged to the guy.
To say that I was shocked is an understatement. I could not believe what had happened and for a whole week after returning to Bangalore , I did no tell even my best friend about it. I had met the guy just one more time before leaving Delhi and that was on my insistence ’cause I wanted to be sure about the whole scene and perhaps about the guy too.
Life soon became a series of calls and emails between us but there was no warmth and feeling of being treated special for me. I wanted a lot more and somehow was not convinced at all that the guy liked me. I had already resigned from my current job without even having another job in hand ’cause my parents wanted me to concentrate on wedding for few months and find a new job once I returned from Bangalore. One disappointment led to another and things kept getting worse between us. No amount of talks and suggestions improved his attention towards me and one day I called the wedding off. I had to convince my parents ( threaten actually) and turn a deaf and blind attitude towards all the over concerned relatives but I knew I had to do this for myself. I thought of staying back in Bangalore for a few more months but I knew I had better return to Delhi and face whatever was in store for me.
3 months at home without a job and constant reminders of a failed engagement later I got a job in Delhi and in August 2010 i settled in this city. Finding a PG was a hassle as back then , we did not have services like https://housing.com/in but as was in luck , I found a very caring set of people and later best friend too.
I found a caring and loyal friend in Yogesh when we first met in September 2010. Inspite of all hurdles and differences, 3 years later, we married each other.
My move to Delhi was not a happy phase but who knew it was the very thing that would give me happiness for a life time. All we need is now a home to call our own where we can build our own heaven. And I know just where to start searching when time comes !
<musings of a healing soul and a warrior of words>