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Being Alone

This is the first time i am going to write some thing of this sort on my blog. No imagination, no fiction, just whatever random thoughts i have in my mind , though not too long i hope.

Being alone does not mean to live alone, but to be able to survive most days alone. There are times when we all need company or support of friends and family, but if you can be happy the rest of the days on your own, I think you will live happy most life.

My first step to being alone was to go out for a movie on y own. I never liked people who talk in middle of the movie. And i prefer NOT to be disturbed when i am watching movie in a theater. But still, watching a movie alone was a weird idea. Thanks to my friends who happen to forget me when going for a movie, i went alone to watch the next movie before any of them so i can trouble them by telling the story (mean i know, but it worked in my favor 😉 ) I loved going alone , having the whole popcorn tub to yourself and not having some one disturb to tell you how lovely the heroine’s dress looked or that she looks fat (She still is acting darling, unlike you and me)

Next step was to go out for coffee alone. I know coffee places are best to meet friends, sit , talk and relax. But what to do f all of your friends prefer proper meal time at a costly restaurant than the coffee time ? (no wonder most of the guys are single !  A lot can happen ONLY over a coffee guys 😉 ) So one day when i was tired of making any one move their lazy bones out of the house, i took my novel, my Ipod and went to the nearest coffee house. And i so much loved the time ! I spent two hours there and had to be reminded to return home. That was the day I knew i could be on my own.

I do not like shopping (Yes, i hate it unless i am in dire need to buy some thing) and i absolutely hate window shopping. Initially i used to accompany my friends for shopping but most times i would drift apart to a book store and be lost among the books. Soon they stopped asking me to come with them unless they do not have any one else. And so it became a bit difficult for me to ask any of them to come with me for shopping trips. So i started going alone at times. Now i am totally comfortable doing that. Not that i enjoy it much. Its just another task for me.

That leaves us with being alone in your house ; with or without people around. I love talking so its always fun to have friends around but when left on my own, i prefer being with books and music. Books are your best friends, no doubt about it now. Any time, any where, books can be your saviour from boredom. Another hobbly that i picked last year was writing. It started with saving some tweets on a blog and then moved on to writing short poems and fiction. Look around , notice people, keep your mind open and you will always have a story to tell.

And still on days, when nothing of this fills the vaccum of your heart, be sure you still have a few friends who understand your need to be alone and love you still as much. Friends with whom silence speaks more than the words. so you can tell them that some days, being alone makes you feel lonely too.

 PS : There is still one thing i have not had the heart to try , and that is going out for a dinner alone. Maybe this year !

Sweets – Stone#1

I never “not like” sweets;

yet i refuse you – your offer was sweet enough !

With this post i begin collecting my thoughts as a part of “A river of Stones

About “River of Stone” : Your challenge, should you choose to accept it, is to pay attention to one thing every day during the month of January and write it down. We call these pieces of writing small stones. We’re especially interested in both ‘writers’ and ‘non-writers’ taking part – it’s not about the finished product, it’s about the process.

Dreams meet reality

I build a dream for me
pulling bits from reality
and patched the real
with threads of my thoughts.

It wasn’t easy to do
but it was so much fun,
that i forgot to create a corner
to hide in,if time comes.

Soon my arms ached
holding the dream intact,
my senses deserted me
as real life started to press.

I was willing to pay
any price i would be asked,
to keep my lovely dreams,
out of reality’s cruel clasp.

The payment now is to forget
where dreams and reality ends,
and trust your sane thoughts
to sustain this explosive blend.

 

Submitted to One Shot Wednesday

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was-Dec-is

seed and spread the idea(s)
you get lots to read and write;
go on an adventure with friends
and that i saw in 3-D Narnia.

bid farewell to a friend you made
with memories treasured in the heart
to see my best gal being happy again
i could not have asked a better start.

But not all was to go as i wanted it
there were in store unthought things
some unexplainable events and people
made sure life not be termed as routine.

And there are bit of sad things too
like the laptop that doesnt work,
or the memory of some special
that comes and hit me on its own term.

Also there is the grand vacation plan,
that i have been waiting for so long
and anticipated joys, smiles and laughs
which i intend to bring back along.

I know not what next days would be like
or how i would be as the year ends
all i know is that i have lots of blessings
and i would be thankful for the ruling trends.

Good and bad, bad and worse, bad and better
thats all of what this year has been to me
and i end this with a heartfelt thanks
to the friends who joined me on this journey.

Written for Months of the year challenge – Dec and Poetry Potluck

I “knit”

Dreams of past
from mind i fish
and color them in
future memories.
some beads of love
i gather silently
patches of tears
i join them with.
I imagine not
what shape i want
nor do i bother
of colors life grant.
I gather when i knit
metaphorical threads
adding,removing
daily ideas in my head.
I offer to all the gift,of
what i make and wear
it talks of wisdom
if you pretend to hear.
I sometimes dread the time
my fingers cease to move
but never will i desert
the yarn that broods.

 

Written for Poetry Rally Week 33 , Submitted also to Z to A challenge – K

Ripples

A ripple per person
we meet as life flows.
A ripple a day,
lets imagine it so.
A ripple for every act
good or bad be it
A ripple for each word
even if expressed silently.
This ripple we create
in life not just ours,
they will live their span
years,days or hours.
The ripples you make
let the good ones run long
and those of hurt and pain
Of them, need i say more ?

Written for Z to A challenge – R

Photo via Flickr/Vince Belford

If you are interested in science, or just curious, read about stone skipping here

“Wh” Questions

Who am I really ?
When will i achieve my destiny ?
Where will i find the love meant for me ?
Why do things not happen the way I want ?
Whom did i hurt when i lived without care ?
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And the list of questions starting like this goes on endless. But how often do we wonder on “How” ? And more specifically the hows of future ?
From today i pledge to replace every “W” question with a “how” one.

How to define myself ?
How to achieve what I want ?
How do I keep my heart open for love and not otherwise ?
How can I make things work for me ?
How should I apologize for the wrong i did ?

And suddenly I see all answers lie within me. All it needs is to be

– Be true to one self
– Remain honest to others
– Know your weakness
– Use your strength
– Love yourself
– Hate the fact that you “hate something”

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bla blah blah !!! Haven’t we all read such words before ?? How long do we remember then even !! Not unless we need that kick again to rise and shine. I wrote this post as a reminder to my pledge , a cement to my ideas on being productive even in thoughts !

I repeat my promise
that I made to myself
the same person i meet
from other side of mirror –
empty eyes search me
a lonely smile taunts me
and i promise (again)
i will keep you happy
oh yes, i will make sure
you do not shy from any one.

So the last but not the least thought for tonight, Don’t just read or write about what you want and how to have it, ACT !! Make your dreams come true. And if they don’t, have the assurance you tried your best at least.

Written for Z to A challenge.

Also submitted to –

 

Joie de vivre

“Be happy”,
that’s what he said
on the roads of parting
“stay happy my friend”.

“how do i”,
i wondered aloud
and before i could ask,
he was no where to be found.

“But I will”
was all i could promise
knowing if i did not,
he will never be at ease.

Years have passed
times took different turns
but to be happy always
i tried best from my end.


Often when i was at loss
of reasons or people to smile
i smiled at the mirror
planting the smile in ym eyes.

“Its not something outside”
i realized, even though late
“that makes you love your life.
But the desire to have it that way”


“I am happy”
I told you in dreams one day
“and i know you too might be,
you are bound to get,what you gave”

And that is the secret
for the joyous life i made
to be happy, to make others so
nothing difficult for you to create.

Prompted @ One single Impresion

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“Life’s great always;we forget sometimes”

Written  for 6WS

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Words in my head

When love passes by you;

this storm has the fury;

to create its own way;

destroying you as it go

something new or someone dead.


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(words by me, image source mentioned below)

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I was just there

your thoughts passed by

your smile

healing my wounds

that your words left behind.


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Appreciation heals

the oldest marks of rejection

not words,but your thought


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Appreciate every

moment passing by your day

treat it like your best

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This was one of the most random post i wrote here. Taking all prompts at once, letting them mix and compete with each other, and finally penning whatever won the fight in my mind. Please bear with me this week !

(Following image is not my creation. Adding it here since it goes with my sentiments )

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Prompted / submitted to OSI , sunday Scribblings , Haiku Heights , 6WS