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I feel the loss

Some times, life brings you in contact with a person whom you feel so connected to, who in his own weird ways makes you happy, who irritates you and annoys you but still you like to have him around.

And then Life does not like this – Or maybe you met this person by mistake. You were never supposed to know his existence. and that maybe would have been good for you both.

Whatever be the scene, you did come into my life , you did make me smile , you made me want to either kick you or some one else at least from the ways you fought with me every other day. I did not mind fighting even the false blames most times. but today I give up. If you can not trust me but more depend on the technologies and your ideas about me, let it be.

I just hope some day you will read this and realize I was not lying !

I already feel the loss of losing a friend.
I will miss you sometimes.

Take care “pagal”

Being Alone

This is the first time i am going to write some thing of this sort on my blog. No imagination, no fiction, just whatever random thoughts i have in my mind , though not too long i hope.

Being alone does not mean to live alone, but to be able to survive most days alone. There are times when we all need company or support of friends and family, but if you can be happy the rest of the days on your own, I think you will live happy most life.

My first step to being alone was to go out for a movie on y own. I never liked people who talk in middle of the movie. And i prefer NOT to be disturbed when i am watching movie in a theater. But still, watching a movie alone was a weird idea. Thanks to my friends who happen to forget me when going for a movie, i went alone to watch the next movie before any of them so i can trouble them by telling the story (mean i know, but it worked in my favor 😉 ) I loved going alone , having the whole popcorn tub to yourself and not having some one disturb to tell you how lovely the heroine’s dress looked or that she looks fat (She still is acting darling, unlike you and me)

Next step was to go out for coffee alone. I know coffee places are best to meet friends, sit , talk and relax. But what to do f all of your friends prefer proper meal time at a costly restaurant than the coffee time ? (no wonder most of the guys are single !  A lot can happen ONLY over a coffee guys 😉 ) So one day when i was tired of making any one move their lazy bones out of the house, i took my novel, my Ipod and went to the nearest coffee house. And i so much loved the time ! I spent two hours there and had to be reminded to return home. That was the day I knew i could be on my own.

I do not like shopping (Yes, i hate it unless i am in dire need to buy some thing) and i absolutely hate window shopping. Initially i used to accompany my friends for shopping but most times i would drift apart to a book store and be lost among the books. Soon they stopped asking me to come with them unless they do not have any one else. And so it became a bit difficult for me to ask any of them to come with me for shopping trips. So i started going alone at times. Now i am totally comfortable doing that. Not that i enjoy it much. Its just another task for me.

That leaves us with being alone in your house ; with or without people around. I love talking so its always fun to have friends around but when left on my own, i prefer being with books and music. Books are your best friends, no doubt about it now. Any time, any where, books can be your saviour from boredom. Another hobbly that i picked last year was writing. It started with saving some tweets on a blog and then moved on to writing short poems and fiction. Look around , notice people, keep your mind open and you will always have a story to tell.

And still on days, when nothing of this fills the vaccum of your heart, be sure you still have a few friends who understand your need to be alone and love you still as much. Friends with whom silence speaks more than the words. so you can tell them that some days, being alone makes you feel lonely too.

 PS : There is still one thing i have not had the heart to try , and that is going out for a dinner alone. Maybe this year !


seed and spread the idea(s)
you get lots to read and write;
go on an adventure with friends
and that i saw in 3-D Narnia.

bid farewell to a friend you made
with memories treasured in the heart
to see my best gal being happy again
i could not have asked a better start.

But not all was to go as i wanted it
there were in store unthought things
some unexplainable events and people
made sure life not be termed as routine.

And there are bit of sad things too
like the laptop that doesnt work,
or the memory of some special
that comes and hit me on its own term.

Also there is the grand vacation plan,
that i have been waiting for so long
and anticipated joys, smiles and laughs
which i intend to bring back along.

I know not what next days would be like
or how i would be as the year ends
all i know is that i have lots of blessings
and i would be thankful for the ruling trends.

Good and bad, bad and worse, bad and better
thats all of what this year has been to me
and i end this with a heartfelt thanks
to the friends who joined me on this journey.

Written for Months of the year challenge – Dec and Poetry Potluck