naughty kids ~ rule my mornings ~ Calvin & Dennis ~ joy read ~ with my tea
“you are special”, he said
it was tactic, but i let it be.
“Be your own manager”, he said if you want to reach the Zenith. “And a good one too”, I added in my head.
Prompted @ 3WW , River of stone – Jan 2012
Jan 1 :
Its freezing cold outside , and yet when I look at the kid smiling at me, I feel warm inside.
Resolutions , new or old
break not from you forgetting them
but ignoring them instead.
Written for River of Stones , Sunday Scribblings
Met a twitter friend for a quick coffee-chat session [ as described by her] and later wrote this in my notebook :
I woke up smiling today.
Which made me think of the reason.
It wasn’t a dream – It was a memory it seems.
Memory of a guy stopping his car in front of me, roll down the window and say “You got a pretty dress on !. It suits you well”.
And then he went away before i could even say thank you or make anything of what happenned.
And then i had smiled.
The same way I woke up smiling.
And then i remember telling you of this incident one day.
And you had smiled the same way as that guy, and said “You always look pretty to me”.
When i started this post, i was feeling literally on cloud 9 ! After a long long time I let myself go free, have a great conversation and just be myself – Nothing new for you ? Neither for me except that I did that in company of a wonderful person I met the first time !It was bliss beyond words.
But the smiles have faded. A sense of loss shrouds my heart. Its weird how some people become a part of your life without intending. How losing them suddenly chokes you. He did not know me but i feel i did. I adored him as much i respected him. May his soul rest in peace. The sky stole a star from the world.
You time, fate and blah blah …
why the hell you can not let my thoughts rest !
Every time i gather and sort them and bind them with sense, you have to come and explode right in the middle of it !
Now don’t dare say that I should be happy with what i get, yeah, try that tonight on me and you are doomed !
Of course I am glad to go with life’s flow but will you please let me do that without throwing pebbles into my soul ?
I am ashamed and guilty I can not be happy even with my joys , forget about considering others ! Does that appeal you ?
Each night i sleep, i am too tired to notice anything. I pull over the blankets to cover mw till my chin, hug my pillow and doze off in less than a minute. It wasn’t much different last night except that when i was adjusting the pillow, and thinking of you, I saw a star outide the top window of my room. No matter in what way i turned my head, i could see the dark sky but no another star. Just this one shining upon me. I don’t know why i felt special suddenly, as if you smiled on me. And i slept soon, dreaming of your face in the star.
Will you be there tonight ?
I will be looking for you.
Your memory is not something I can’t ignore –
I do not have that much spare time.
Your words are not what make me smile or cry –
Its the meaning behind them that matters.
Your actions speak nothing to me –
I carve for the reactions they fetched out of me.
Your lessons never were to my liking –
I just miss the feeling of being cared like that.
Your approval was something i seeked –
I no longer have the same beleif on me.
You are not some one I can’t forget –
I do not want to forget you ever.
you are some one I wish i could forget –
I do not want to lose myself in the process.
Written as a part of “A river of Stones“
“You are the enigmatic one”
“You can make a moment interesting in life”
“Your happiness add smiles to others”
These and few more pearls of praise spill out of my memories – the most exquisite compliments any one ever gave me !
I string them now and then, bead upon bead into a hand held necklace; to chant them every time i lose myself among doubts.
Your words never let me down ; and in turn i promise myself never to let your compliments down !
carnival of thoughts
aided well by networking sites
does sleep stand a chance ?
Prompted at OSI and Haiku heights